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    Jin Baek

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    Hi, there! I'm Jin, and I am a passionate, talkative, dessert fanatic. Poems, good books, coconut water, and action movies make me happy. If we ever meet in person, you'll definitely hear me before you see me. You'll want to ask how many energy drinks I've had, but the answer will always be zero.

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Insomniac at College

It is currently 4:12 AM.

I am awake and eating ice cream and writing about how I am awake at this brutally early (or late) hour. Why?

Well, ice cream is good for my soul at any time of any day so there’s that, and I’m probably going to stay up until the end of the day, or later than that. It’s not because I have an assignment due later today that I procrastinated on (which has definitely happened more times than I want to admit). It’s not because I woke up crazy early to study for a test that I have later today (which should have happened more for the sake of my grades, really).

I have insomnia, so this is all pretty normal for me.

Yes, it is horrible. Yes, I’ve “tried really hard” to sleep. But the worst part of being an insomniac is that I’m also a college student. I can’t speak for insomniacs in the world who have a different occupation, but I know from my experiences that being sleep deprived in college is definitely a bigger mountain to climb than one would think.

Think about life being really difficult as a broke, busy, stressed-out, overwhelmed, chronically hungry, exhausted college student just trying to get through. Now, multiply the distress by ten thousand. That is how I feel my life is.

Even when I’m so sleep deprived that my brain stops working and my body feels stiff and I feel like the world is moving too fast for me to process, I can’t fall asleep most of the time. My brain tells me when I can take a nap, and sometimes, it’s during the worst times ever. My life seems to be a constant struggle between getting all the sleep I can when I can, and living like a healthy, functioning college student. I haven’t been able to do both at the same time yet.

Sleep or stay awake in class? Sleep or go to class at all? Sleep or eat dinner? Sleep or hang out with my friends? Sleep or do something productive when everyone else is also awake? How am I supposed to decide when I become a brainless zombie without sleep?

College is a struggle, I can’t even lie about that. But insomnia is a bloody war.

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